Friday, October 31, 2008

Garrett's First Halloween!

**Garrett had a happening day! Here are some of the things we were up to...

...Attended a wild & crazy Halloween costume party @ Shana's...



...Went to big cousin Ben's Preschool Halloween Party...


...Topped off with a fun night @ Nana & Pa's with a cook-out, smores, & Trick or Treating.



Today Garrett slept through...

-getting Kangaroo costume on
-Trick or Treating
-taking pictures in costume
-Ben's Preschool Party
***It's 10:46 & he is still asleep. He is worn out!


Today was my last day of maternity leave. I am an emotional wreck right now. I didn't care what we did to fill the time today, I just made sure to stay busy so I didn't have time to think about it. I never knew how much I could love that little thing in my belly until he came out & I got to know him...it hurts so bad to think that I can't be with him each day anymore. I know I need to be strong, but it's so hard. Deep down inside I know we've tried everything we possibly can to make this work & it's just not the right time for me to be home - it just isn't possible right now. I've never known hurt like this before. I know tons of people go through this everyday with grace & acceptance - I totally give you props...I need a little of the strength that yall have because this is definitely the hardest thing I've ever been through. I was in denial that this day would never come & now that it's here, I really don't know how to cope. I have had so much fun with our little man. I am going to miss him so much.

3 comments:

Kathy said...

I am here for you. That is all I can say....

Stacey said...

Every mom feels the exact same way about leaving their baby. It is horrible. Hang in there and think only a couple of weeks until Thanksgiving break and then only a few until Christmas. I always just lived for the next holiday.

Denise said...

I'm sorry you're so sad. I can't imagine. :(